Anticipatory Anxiety

The event was amazing. So fun, no stress. Again, why was I nervous? It was just yesterday that I did nothing and cried. I felt a little bit sick when we were driving there, but not as sick as I’ve felt in the past. I distracted myself well today, obsessed over outfits a bit, but I even wore lipstick!

I don’t know how to fix this anticipatory anxiety stuff. I know that the more I push through the anxiety and just good the thing, it’s fine, but I’ve done that a lot and not much has changed.

sea-glass-siren:

Mental Health Awareness Week from October 5-11

Even mermaids can have a mental illness, for a mermaid has no tears and therefore suffers so much more.

I’m that one person out of every five who has an invisible illness. I’m a suicide survivor. These are two reasons why I chose to per-sue Counseling Psychology in college. It’s also why I wanted to become a mermaid; not just to make myself happy, but to make others happy as well. Help raise awareness for mental illness by sharing this post.

Know that you are not alone.

(Source: mermaidmargo, via dermatillowhat)

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loki-has-a-tardis:

This is honestly the best poster I have found in a while supporting breast cancer awareness. I am honestly so sick of seeing, “set the tatas free” and “save the boobies”. There is no reason in hell a life threatening, life ruining disease should be sexualized. “Don’t wear a bra day,” go fuck yourselves. You’re not saving a pair of tits, you’re saving the entire package: mind, body, and soul included. Women are not just a pair of breasts.

loki-has-a-tardis:

This is honestly the best poster I have found in a while supporting breast cancer awareness. I am honestly so sick of seeing, “set the tatas free” and “save the boobies”. There is no reason in hell a life threatening, life ruining disease should be sexualized. “Don’t wear a bra day,” go fuck yourselves. You’re not saving a pair of tits, you’re saving the entire package: mind, body, and soul included. Women are not just a pair of breasts.

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traveltobeprovedwrong:

deveninanewdress:

cutthroatchorus:

wickedclothes:

Bra With Pockets

This functional bra can hold most cellphones, IDs, and other small items regardless of bust size. Items won’t change the way the bra fits you. Currently on sale at Amazon!

OK I REALLY WANT TO BE KISSING A GIRL AND THEN I TAKE OFF MY SHIRT AND SHE’S LIKE “CUTE BRA” AND I CAN SAY “THANKS IT HAS POCKETS”

the game has changed forever

THIS IS THE BEST IDEA EVER

NO THIS IS A BAD IDEA. Don’t put your phone close to your body for long periods of time. It can cause cancer, I’ve heard, and if I’m wrong (because I have to proof), it’s just not good because we don’t know what’s being emitted from cellphones and what they can cause in the longterm.

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me: aw man i totally just walked out of that bathroom without picking my face. like i didnt even look in the mirror thats so hardcore im so hardcore
me: *is currently picking my arm*
me: shit
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Nervous for Tonight

I signed up for a free, awesome, music event where a bunch of people make dinner, eat, and then jam. Normal, rational me would adore this event, but I really don’t want to go. Intensely. I can’t cancel because I made the damn commitment. I keep doing that, where I back out at the last minute. I can’t keep doing that. I know that a general life rule is to not do what you don’t want to. But I do want to, my brain is just getting in the way. When I think about it logically, I feel more determined that I can indeed go.

So I got up at a good time and ate breakfast. I’m going to get my homework done to take off some stress off so I don’t have to worry about that too. And then self talk and distractions. I dunno how this self talk is gonna go though. Any ideas?

~Titi

"This sentence has five words. Here are five more words. Five-word sentences are fine. But several together become monotonous. Listen to what is happening. The writing is getting boring. The sound of it drones. It’s like a stuck record. The ear demands some variety. Now listen. I vary the sentence length, and I create music. Music. The writing sings. It has a pleasant rhythm, a lilt, a harmony. I use short sentences. And I use sentences of medium length. And sometimes, when I am certain the reader is rested, I will engage him with a sentence of considerable length, a sentence that burns with energy and builds with all the impetus of a crescendo, the roll of the drums, the crash of the cymbals—sounds that say listen to this, it is important."

Gary Provost (via tuongexists)

Holy crap, what just happened there… (via cyrusgabriel)

Words, man. Words.

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Emotional Reasoning + Black & White

I’m emotional reasoning and saying because of how I feel in this moment, I won’t do new social events or make plans with people or try hard at anything in the future. I now understand why I do this. Black and white thinking.

It’s because it’s easier to not allow yourself to do anything than to experience this crap when you do do stuff.

I’m sick of smothering my feelings with movies and food and picking and electronics. I just don’t want them to exist in the first place. I feel like I’m lying when i try to make myself feel better and there’s no legitimate cause because that is logical and you can solve problems but this is just random.

anxiousyogini:

i finally finished my coaching homework for monday. i put hyperfocus on skin under “bad habits holding you back,” but i didn’t list not picking under “habits you’d like to cultivate,” because that’s not a habit—it’s a way of life. if other new habits can compete with my picking, they will. but they might not. they probably won’t.

i put self acceptance instead.

OHHHH DAMN LOOK AT THAT BOOM